Saturday, February 27, 2016


So much to write about... where do I begin?

Sarah, you're obsessed with your age and asking me when you'll grow up and when you'll turn 4. Your vocabulary is increasing at a crazy rate so it feels good to see you stumble once in a while... like today when you said karoti for katori and it took me a minute to figure out that one!  You love TV and Damisht stories and can do anything for them. I used to think your goofiness wasn't appreciated by Nu but she's proving that wrong. She loves laughing with you and gets all excited when she sees your van during your drop-off. You love making things with your Magna tiles and seem to have a real artistic flair.

Nu, it's amazing how much you've changed in the past two weeks: you're now pulling up to stand, babbling na-na and mummmm, sounds often heard mostly during your favourite meals of oats. Love grabbing our plates and always want to eat what we're eating.  You're becoming naughty too, always rushing off to grab the steel rod or an open cupboard/fridge. These days the first thing you do after your afternoon nap is to climb on to your sister's bed and bang and pull on her head. You're just so cute and like your daddy says,  even I wish there was always a baby of this age in the house.

My life... For the past few weeks just seems to be an endless cycle of SAHMing.  I finally am getting both kids off to sleep earlier but it hasn't freed me up as much as I'd hoped. Probably because during the same time Nu has started needing more attention and care.  I can't imagine how people with more kids manage. I still feel like I have a long way to go to be the organized mom with an always clean home all the time.  The struggle to be that woman vs. the woman who also manages to work in studying, reading,  writing and general brain work continues. Apparently this sense of loss of self is common and hopefully will decrease with time. I also need to recognize that there are solid reasons behind why I chose this path and be grateful that I could do it. Reading 'The Marshmallow Test' is helping me do this but I wish I had more time to read.

Last week was pretty haywire with all the house-searching etc. May Allah ta'ala help us make the right decision.

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Update #whatever

I was just telling the husband that in about 4 months, Nu will be one. ONE YEAR OLD in sha Allah. Howwwww(l). As terrible as the last few weeks have been, I can't stand the thought of her babyness going away.  Except for her not sleeping well, I love love love this stage. She is so cute ma  sha Allah.She's occasionally trying to prop herself on all fours but otherwise will scoot around every where. It's funny how she keeps getting stuck at the end of her mattress because she's too scared of falling. I'm being fussy and tending to put her in the walker so she doesn't crawl and get dirty even though the floors are pretty clean. Even though Sarah used to crawl on floors that were much worse, no thanks indian mittid un-roads. She's not very openly affectionate like S was but I'm definitely her favourite person in the world. She's still having major stranger anxiety and will not even tolerate her dad for too long. Sometimes she's in his arms but will only look at me. Weird baby. But so yummy. Ma sha Allah :D

Sarah is busy building many different things with her magnetic tiles. She keeps trying to pick up nurah or will drag her. Scary but kind sister. S must get a story every night and it must be in Chinese (because every language that is not English is Chinese, including Urdu). The story must be about Damisht, her brother Danish and their mom and dad. Damisht being a doll that came with her doll house. Her vocabulary and accent are heavily influenced by TV and school so her English is very mish-mashed yet still pretty good alhamdulillah.

This Chinese New year long weekend we went to the beach park and the zoo. The first was rejuvenating (except for getting caught in a sudden thunderstorm at the end) and the second was pretty exhausting as expected. That's all I can write for now.  Alhamdulillah alaa kulli haal.