Wednesday, August 29, 2012

7 weeks

Dear Sarah,

Two days ago you began to smile "socially". You had smiled at me earlier too but then you fell sick in between and I guess getting through the day was all you could manage. You smiled when you heard my voice and I was thrilled.   Then you wouldn't go to sleep, or if you did, not for more than an hour. This was after you kept me awake most of the previous night so by the end of the yesterday, I was at the end of my rope. Your grandparents were also surprised at this behavior and the constant crying and took turns with you to give me a break. I really don't know how I'll manage on my own once we go back. Alhamdulillah, you slept really well last night and I hope today will be good too. 

I love you so much... The world seems like such a scary place now... And when I read about deaths/famines/earthquakes/accidents I thank Alah ta'ala for being safe and sound with you and pray that Allah makes life easier for all mothers.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Beautiful words

 لا تدع الناس يعرفون عنك سوى سعادتك! ولا يرون مــنك إلا ابتسامتك فإن ضاقت عليك ! ففي القرآن جنتك . . وإن المتك وحدتك فإلى السماء دعوتك ! وإن سألوك عن أخبارك !! فأحمد الله و أبتسـم
"Let not the people come to know except of your happiness, and let them not see except your smile. If life becomes constricted upon you, then within the Qur'an lies your orchard. If you feel curtailed and restricted, then to the heavens raise your call. And if they ask you of your affairs, then praise Allah and smile. 

 وإذا رأيت نملة في الطريق فلا تدسها وابتغ بذلك وجه الله عسى أن يرحمك كما رحمتها" . . وتذكر أنها تسبح لله فلا توقف هذا التسبيح بقتلك لها
If you see an ant on the path, then do not crush it, and seek the Face of Allah thereby, so that He will have mercy on you like you had mercy on it, and remember that it glorifies Allah, so do not halt this glorification by killing it.

وإذا مررت بعصفور يشرب من بركة ماء فلا تمر بجانبه لتخيفه " وابتغ بذلك وجه الله عسى أن يؤمنك من الخوف يوم تبلغ القلوب الحناجر
And if you pass by a bird drinking from the blessing of water, then do not pass close to it in case you startle it, and seek the Face of Allah thereby, so that He grants you safety from fear on the Day when hearts shall reach the throat.
وإذا اعترضتك قطة في وسط الطريق فتجنب أن تصدمها وابتغ بذلك وجه الله عسى أن يقيك الله ميتة السوء
And if you come across a cat in the middle of the road, then avoid hitting it, and seek the Face of Allah thereby, so that He protects you from an evil death.

واذا هممت بإلقاء بقايا الطعام فاجعل نيتك أن تأكل منها الدواب وابتغ بذلك وجه الله عسى أن يرزقك الله من حيث لا تحتسب
And if you want to throw out food, then make it your intention that animals can eat from it, and seek the Face of Allah thereby, so that He provides you from whence you do not expect.

وتذكر :~ افعل الخير مهما استصغرته فلا تدرى أى حسنة تدخلك الجنه
Do good, no matter how small it seems to you, because you do not know which good deed will enter you into Paradise.

واذا نويت نشرهذا الكلام انوى بها خير لعل الله يفرج لك كربه من كرب الدنيا والاخره
And if you wish to spread this statement, then intend good, so that Allah may relieve you of a trial from the trials of this world and the Hereafter."

From here:

Monday, August 27, 2012

Twinkle twinkle little star

Dear Sarah,
I gave you a bath for the first time today and alhamdulillah, it was going quite well until I realized that your face was still oily from the massage and proceeded to wash your face for the second time... Then you began screaming bloody murder (and boy, can you scream...) so munawwar bi and mummy had to calm you down together.

I also wanted to note how cute you look when you stretch on waking up, like a teeny tiny starfish! you still won't make much eye contact with me but you will crane your neck in all directions to look at your Ammaarah Api/Baji (she still can't decide which) when she happens to come by. She also believes that there are times when you (intentionally) hit her or touch her foot or smile at her, and these become momentous events of the day.

You're becoming stronger now... Wanting to turn over so that you can lick the bed sheet when you get hungry or pushing the changing pad away with your feet and sliding upwards. It was a lot of fun to watch you play with your aunt too, she calls you her little gudda and played the yayy game with you. The game involves lifting up both your arms and going yayy after statements like this "mere mummy ka naam Peemmi hai... Yayy! Main Chennai ki hoon...Yayy! Mera favorite drink duddu hai...yayy!" sigh, her visit was so so short!

It's sooooooooo wonderful to be with you... But please do stop waking up at six in the morning and screaming when you can't figure out what to do with the rest of the day. Just tell me and i'll make sure we put it on your busy eat, poop, sleep, play-with-everyone-and-ignore-mommy-till-I'm-hungry schedule.  


Friday, August 3, 2012


I don't think I'm ever going to get around to updating this blog in chronological fashion, so Sarah, I just wanted to say that I love it when you fall asleep on me like a little (well-mannered) koala bear when i'm burping you. I hope I never forget how wonderful this feels. Even when I become a barely functional human being thanks to all the sleep deprivation, I will always want to remember this warm, fuzzy feeling - I love you honey.