Saturday, January 16, 2016

Update #

As I write this,  Nu is lying beside me playing with her toes and blowing bubbles. Yes, very cute but third was supposed to be my downtime! But the way it works is that S must, rather MUSTERESTTEREST make a lot of noise before going to sleep and wake up Nu. Only then can she fall asleep in peace!

Annnyway, we're back from the vacation which was very whirlwind thanks to the wedding. Barely got to sit and chat with the parents or go out with M. I was either shopping or busy with the kids. The wedding was thankfully made less of a hassle because the venues were within the hotel or close by. I'd thought s would be the life of the party but she fell sick  (and also had a nasty fall the night before) and was whiny throughout except for when M bhaiya was around.

Nu has thankfully become much more social after the visit. I wish we (continuing this after a WEEK)

were living closer to our families but I will admit that the pollution in Hyderabad is really worrying me and I'm grateful for the clean air here (except when the haze is on, obviously). There are no parks nearby and no opportunities for physical activity and that is something I find almost indispensable now.

Anyway I have time only for a few lines here so here are some bulleted updates:

- Nu at 6.5 months is now doing some army crawling but isn't perfect yet
- she loves her walker and I'm so grateful for it. Gives both of us freedom
- she now extends her arms when I say aao and is also doing it at other times (extending and twisting wrist)
- M is working later and on weekends these past few days so we haven't done much. I am really,  really,  really looking forward to some time off
- Sarah and her non-stop talking and stories are continuing.  She demands stories at all times of the day and night but usually gets a quick meta story in the afternoon and one in the night. She's picked up this really annoying whining Daniel Tiger - style which gets on my nerves so I'm teaching her how to not whine. She's also really funny and smart ma sha Allah... sometimes saying very adult like things. These aren't one of those but apparently the flight attendant says, "passenger your seat belt" :D and she couldn't ishu earlier that time because the isshu was woerking on his laptop. Also, "paani ishu ka father hai". Profound toilet wisdom. She's thrilled she can now take off and put on her tshirt/frock. And I was surprised when she could understand what the train announcements were yesterday on my heavily laden trip to Bedok mall.
- the media, the Islam-phobia, the hate that's spewing from people I knew in real life and never suspected it really brought me down last week. The net is full of genuine looking sites that are twisting Islam to look like some vile ideology and I was feeling very shattered about the whole thing. Then I attend my Quran class and cry and think do people even know that they're missing? May Allah guide us all.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Update #7

Last weekend we went back to our old haunt... The Islamic Restaurant... got some takeaway too. Then I caught a cold so the rest of the weekend was pretty dull . Went to the mall for s's haircut yesterday? Or was it the day before? Went to the mall today for some vacation shopping. Got stuck there because it was pouring outside. Sat in CBTL for a while and people on both sides of me were having the craziest conversations.

I haven't even started on my list yet,  forget packing! Lots of stuff to do tomorrow.

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Update #6

So by the weekend arrived, my nerves were completely frayed and it actually took me a whole week to realize why: Sarah was home for her winter break!  Yeah,  that's what having two kids does to your brain.  Sarah,  when you grow up and read this, don't feel bad. You'll know when you have your own 3 year old in sha Allah :p So much energy in such a little human being!  Also... The talking... I thought NAK was exaggerating and being unfair when he was talking about how much his girls talk... now I totally understand.

Anyway it being husband's birthday, I made biryani and baghare timatar and it turned out �� alhamdulillah. I also indulged myself in some retail therapy buying gifts and stuff for myself. On Sunday, we found a nearby cafe that sells churros... yummy! It was a good weekend, alhamdulillah!

Tuesday was one dish party day (no Appy, everyone makes a different dish and gets it to the party,  the same as a potluck)... and I was hurried and bhurried... made mummy's macaroni, packed it along with the  icecream, readied both kids and landed up one hour late. :/ well people came later too but not good :/ it was at a beautiful condo in Bedok with trees and  swimming pools surrounding us. I was thinking of jannah and the promise of flowing rivers and gardens. It was noon though so I got really tired and dehydrated and ended up with a massive headache. Luckily I had the macaroni and didn't have to cook. Ate the yummiest chocolate pudding and want to make it someday.

Today was really depressing what with hearing about the floods in Chennai from N, S'ra and her cancer & chemotherapy, the shootings, the bombings in Syria... felt like yes, Qiyamah is near.

Been more patient with the kids. I need to be more present. Went to sunplaza park because it hadn't rained and got a good walk in.  Alhamdulillah for all the blessings we have been showered with. May Allah ta'ala help those who are in need and bring peace to those who are grieving.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Reflections #6: Notes from Surah Yaseen

Sahih International
Indeed, it is We who bring the dead to life and record what they have put forth and what they left behind, and all things We have enumerated in a clear register.

The Arabic word for 'what they left behind' is aasaar.
Aasaar are visible impressions, like the trails of a plane in the sky. Not only are our actions in life counted in our book of deeds, but so are the impressions we leave behind.
So, what are these aasaar that will be counted either for us or against us on the Day of Judgement?

·         Sadaqah Jariah

o    Duas of a righteous offspring

o    Acts that continue to benefit people after your death: like digging a well, building a madrasah or a hospital

o    Knowledge you passed on

·         The impression that you leave behind

o    The good or bad opinion that people have of you because of the good/bad you did to them

·         The good or bad trends you set:

o    From a hadith: Jarîr relates that the Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Whoever initiates a good practice (sunnah hasanah) in Islam and is emulated by others in doing so will get the reward of it and the reward of all those who act upon it without their rewards being diminished in any respect. And whosoever initiates an evil practice (sunnah sayyi'ah) in Islam and is emulated by others will bear the sin of it and the sin of all those who act on it without their burden being diminished in the least. " [Sahîh Muslim: (1017)]

·         The steps you take towards Allah: Your footsteps or your petrol bills, such as going or coming from the mosque

·         The writing you have left behind: your class notes, your diary, your rants against people

·         Calling someone towards a good deed or Islam or driving them away from good or Islam

·         People you have influenced (without being aware of it) to do good or bad: your children, their children, your friends and family, your students.   Your good or bad vibes, your attitude can inspire or repel people from doing good

·         Sometimes you see someone and feel inclined to do good, some people repulse you, some people make you feel happy, some make you feel closer to God, some people seem trustworthy to you, some seem like they will cheat you. While your impression of these people may be wrong, what ultimately matters is the impression they leave on Allah ta'ala through all their actions. What is the impression that you leave on your family and those around you?  What is the impression that Allah ta'ala has of you?


It is the aasaar of the Nabi and the sahaba that have reached us all through the generations

Don't think that your book of deeds only has your own deeds, everything you do is influencing someone to do either good or bad. On the Day of Judgement we'll be informed of all the 'aasaar' or impressions we left behind.


Monday, November 30, 2015

Reflecting - 5

(From my class notes)

Sahih International

And among people and moving creatures and grazing livestock are various colors similarly. Only those fear Allah , from among His servants, who have knowledge. Indeed, Allah is Exalted in Might and Forgiving.

·         Nabi saws said he was the one who feared Allah ta'ala the most

·         You need both worldly knowledge and faith in the unseen to really fear Allah as He should be feared

·         "ILm is not knowing a lot or talking a lot, but but it is the knowledge which brings with it fear of Allah

·         "Jo darrta nahin toh aalim nahin"

·         Ali RA said "Mukammal faqeeh who hai jo logon ko Allah ki rahmat se mayoos na kare. Aur unko gunahon ki rukhsat bhi na de. Aur unko Allah ke azaab se mutmainn na kar de. Aur Quran ko chodkar kisi doosri cheez ki taraf raghbat na kare. Us ibadat mein koi khayr nahin jo baghayr ilm ke ho. Aur us ilm mein koi khayr nahin jo baghar samajh ke ho. Aur us qiraat mein koi khayr nahin jo baghayr tadabbur ke ho (asal faeda mand qirat woh hai jismein ghaur o fikr ho)

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Update #5

This week was weird... husband had to work on the weekend too and it just happened that I was either too tired to go out or there wasn't enough time to go out. Since S has holidays from this week, I didn't even step out of the house for three days! I don't think that's ever happened before.

On Tuesday, I could finally attend the dars and this time I was a little more social. Now I'm in the whatsapp group and my first one dish party ever is on Tuesday! Alhamdulillah. Felt great to meet other desi moms.

I think Nurah's going through her 4 month sleep regression at 5 months. Whatever it is, it's making me really cranky. She's screaming for attention and I'm already partially deaf :|

I called up the orphanage but they asked me to call their headquarters. Haven't got around to that yet :( registered as a volunteer on their site but no response so far.

Don't have the energy to write anymore. ..

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Reflecting - 3

- Being grateful and being patient. These are the only two conditions that a Muslim may be in. Grateful during good times and patient during bad times.
- Sometimes we get so frustrated with the small things that in anger we reject the blessing itself. Nothing is perfect in this world, everything comes with its own flaws
- Satan promised God that he would make men ungrateful. Allah ta'ala warns us again and again that Satan is our open enemy so we must be wary of him
- On the day of Judgement those who committed evil will accuse Satan of leading them astray. Satan will say that he only gave them the idea (whispered it in fact) and it was our choice whether to go ahead with it or not
- so we should try to be grateful, even for the smallest of things