Sunday, May 8, 2016

10 months

So,  Nu, you completed 10 months 2 days ago. It's been cool to compare your progress with your sister's, thanks to this blog. You guys seem to be doing pretty much the same things,  i guess you're a teeny bit more quicker at picking up stuff. So here's a summary of what you've been up to:
- you're finally crawling properly
- you love bouncing all the time
- you love your sister and love having a screaming match with her. Not really kind to my ears. Our poor neighbours
- when she's sleeping, you'll go and lie down on top of her and keep smacking her on her head like you  do to everything else
- you're a picky eater in comparison...  You won't eat most fruit and love spicy stuff. That may have something to do with my  diet though
- you love the roomba sooo much,  assaulting it every now and then
- you don't have any words yet though you can wave bye bye,  and understand a few everyday words
- your favourite word right now sounds like bmmmba but who knows what it means
- [updated 9th May] .  Nurah you said "cat" today! You even pointed at the cat stuffed toy and said it! Subhanallah,  it's just amazing how babies learn. You seem to be repeating lots of words though you tend not to repeat them more than once usually. 

Now about the girl who is OBSESSED with her age and growing older, 
- Sarah,  you sometimes say the sweetest things like "did you and daddy miss nurah and me when we were still in the hospital?" -  made me melt
- you keep doing really button-pushing things these days so one day in the bathroom,  i screamed exasperatedly and said,  "why did you do this?!" and without blinking an eye,  you said "my brain is not working"! I really need to watch what I say to you!
- you've always been very social but now I've been to notice how sometimes you get too chatty,  talking to random strangers and telling them details of your life that they're not really interested in :D stuff like "mummy,  can i show the pizza uncle my [latest fascination]?" . You love to introduce nurah to these strangers too. Awww,  baby.
- both of you are loud. Nurah screams and scares away people and you love to sing and teach [your poor parents] lots of songs
- you are obsessed with dressing like a ballerina and princesses

I'm going to stop and post this now. More as it happens in sha Allah (and i have the time)

Saturday, February 27, 2016


So much to write about... where do I begin?

Sarah, you're obsessed with your age and asking me when you'll grow up and when you'll turn 4. Your vocabulary is increasing at a crazy rate so it feels good to see you stumble once in a while... like today when you said karoti for katori and it took me a minute to figure out that one!  You love TV and Damisht stories and can do anything for them. I used to think your goofiness wasn't appreciated by Nu but she's proving that wrong. She loves laughing with you and gets all excited when she sees your van during your drop-off. You love making things with your Magna tiles and seem to have a real artistic flair.

Nu, it's amazing how much you've changed in the past two weeks: you're now pulling up to stand, babbling na-na and mummmm, sounds often heard mostly during your favourite meals of oats. Love grabbing our plates and always want to eat what we're eating.  You're becoming naughty too, always rushing off to grab the steel rod or an open cupboard/fridge. These days the first thing you do after your afternoon nap is to climb on to your sister's bed and bang and pull on her head. You're just so cute and like your daddy says,  even I wish there was always a baby of this age in the house.

My life... For the past few weeks just seems to be an endless cycle of SAHMing.  I finally am getting both kids off to sleep earlier but it hasn't freed me up as much as I'd hoped. Probably because during the same time Nu has started needing more attention and care.  I can't imagine how people with more kids manage. I still feel like I have a long way to go to be the organized mom with an always clean home all the time.  The struggle to be that woman vs. the woman who also manages to work in studying, reading,  writing and general brain work continues. Apparently this sense of loss of self is common and hopefully will decrease with time. I also need to recognize that there are solid reasons behind why I chose this path and be grateful that I could do it. Reading 'The Marshmallow Test' is helping me do this but I wish I had more time to read.

Last week was pretty haywire with all the house-searching etc. May Allah ta'ala help us make the right decision.

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Update #whatever

I was just telling the husband that in about 4 months, Nu will be one. ONE YEAR OLD in sha Allah. Howwwww(l). As terrible as the last few weeks have been, I can't stand the thought of her babyness going away.  Except for her not sleeping well, I love love love this stage. She is so cute ma  sha Allah.She's occasionally trying to prop herself on all fours but otherwise will scoot around every where. It's funny how she keeps getting stuck at the end of her mattress because she's too scared of falling. I'm being fussy and tending to put her in the walker so she doesn't crawl and get dirty even though the floors are pretty clean. Even though Sarah used to crawl on floors that were much worse, no thanks indian mittid un-roads. She's not very openly affectionate like S was but I'm definitely her favourite person in the world. She's still having major stranger anxiety and will not even tolerate her dad for too long. Sometimes she's in his arms but will only look at me. Weird baby. But so yummy. Ma sha Allah :D

Sarah is busy building many different things with her magnetic tiles. She keeps trying to pick up nurah or will drag her. Scary but kind sister. S must get a story every night and it must be in Chinese (because every language that is not English is Chinese, including Urdu). The story must be about Damisht, her brother Danish and their mom and dad. Damisht being a doll that came with her doll house. Her vocabulary and accent are heavily influenced by TV and school so her English is very mish-mashed yet still pretty good alhamdulillah.

This Chinese New year long weekend we went to the beach park and the zoo. The first was rejuvenating (except for getting caught in a sudden thunderstorm at the end) and the second was pretty exhausting as expected. That's all I can write for now.  Alhamdulillah alaa kulli haal.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Update #

As I write this,  Nu is lying beside me playing with her toes and blowing bubbles. Yes, very cute but third was supposed to be my downtime! But the way it works is that S must, rather MUSTERESTTEREST make a lot of noise before going to sleep and wake up Nu. Only then can she fall asleep in peace!

Annnyway, we're back from the vacation which was very whirlwind thanks to the wedding. Barely got to sit and chat with the parents or go out with M. I was either shopping or busy with the kids. The wedding was thankfully made less of a hassle because the venues were within the hotel or close by. I'd thought s would be the life of the party but she fell sick  (and also had a nasty fall the night before) and was whiny throughout except for when M bhaiya was around.

Nu has thankfully become much more social after the visit. I wish we (continuing this after a WEEK)

were living closer to our families but I will admit that the pollution in Hyderabad is really worrying me and I'm grateful for the clean air here (except when the haze is on, obviously). There are no parks nearby and no opportunities for physical activity and that is something I find almost indispensable now.

Anyway I have time only for a few lines here so here are some bulleted updates:

- Nu at 6.5 months is now doing some army crawling but isn't perfect yet
- she loves her walker and I'm so grateful for it. Gives both of us freedom
- she now extends her arms when I say aao and is also doing it at other times (extending and twisting wrist)
- M is working later and on weekends these past few days so we haven't done much. I am really,  really,  really looking forward to some time off
- Sarah and her non-stop talking and stories are continuing.  She demands stories at all times of the day and night but usually gets a quick meta story in the afternoon and one in the night. She's picked up this really annoying whining Daniel Tiger - style which gets on my nerves so I'm teaching her how to not whine. She's also really funny and smart ma sha Allah... sometimes saying very adult like things. These aren't one of those but apparently the flight attendant says, "passenger your seat belt" :D and she couldn't ishu earlier that time because the isshu was woerking on his laptop. Also, "paani ishu ka father hai". Profound toilet wisdom. She's thrilled she can now take off and put on her tshirt/frock. And I was surprised when she could understand what the train announcements were yesterday on my heavily laden trip to Bedok mall.
- the media, the Islam-phobia, the hate that's spewing from people I knew in real life and never suspected it really brought me down last week. The net is full of genuine looking sites that are twisting Islam to look like some vile ideology and I was feeling very shattered about the whole thing. Then I attend my Quran class and cry and think do people even know that they're missing? May Allah guide us all.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Update #7

Last weekend we went back to our old haunt... The Islamic Restaurant... got some takeaway too. Then I caught a cold so the rest of the weekend was pretty dull . Went to the mall for s's haircut yesterday? Or was it the day before? Went to the mall today for some vacation shopping. Got stuck there because it was pouring outside. Sat in CBTL for a while and people on both sides of me were having the craziest conversations.

I haven't even started on my list yet,  forget packing! Lots of stuff to do tomorrow.

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Update #6

So by the weekend arrived, my nerves were completely frayed and it actually took me a whole week to realize why: Sarah was home for her winter break!  Yeah,  that's what having two kids does to your brain.  Sarah,  when you grow up and read this, don't feel bad. You'll know when you have your own 3 year old in sha Allah :p So much energy in such a little human being!  Also... The talking... I thought NAK was exaggerating and being unfair when he was talking about how much his girls talk... now I totally understand.

Anyway it being husband's birthday, I made biryani and baghare timatar and it turned out 👌 alhamdulillah. I also indulged myself in some retail therapy buying gifts and stuff for myself. On Sunday, we found a nearby cafe that sells churros... yummy! It was a good weekend, alhamdulillah!

Tuesday was one dish party day (no Appy, everyone makes a different dish and gets it to the party,  the same as a potluck)... and I was hurried and bhurried... made mummy's macaroni, packed it along with the  icecream, readied both kids and landed up one hour late. :/ well people came later too but not good :/ it was at a beautiful condo in Bedok with trees and  swimming pools surrounding us. I was thinking of jannah and the promise of flowing rivers and gardens. It was noon though so I got really tired and dehydrated and ended up with a massive headache. Luckily I had the macaroni and didn't have to cook. Ate the yummiest chocolate pudding and want to make it someday.

Today was really depressing what with hearing about the floods in Chennai from N, S'ra and her cancer & chemotherapy, the shootings, the bombings in Syria... felt like yes, Qiyamah is near.

Been more patient with the kids. I need to be more present. Went to sunplaza park because it hadn't rained and got a good walk in.  Alhamdulillah for all the blessings we have been showered with. May Allah ta'ala help those who are in need and bring peace to those who are grieving.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Reflections #6: Notes from Surah Yaseen

Sahih International
Indeed, it is We who bring the dead to life and record what they have put forth and what they left behind, and all things We have enumerated in a clear register.

The Arabic word for 'what they left behind' is aasaar.
Aasaar are visible impressions, like the trails of a plane in the sky. Not only are our actions in life counted in our book of deeds, but so are the impressions we leave behind.
So, what are these aasaar that will be counted either for us or against us on the Day of Judgement?

·         Sadaqah Jariah

o    Duas of a righteous offspring

o    Acts that continue to benefit people after your death: like digging a well, building a madrasah or a hospital

o    Knowledge you passed on

·         The impression that you leave behind

o    The good or bad opinion that people have of you because of the good/bad you did to them

·         The good or bad trends you set:

o    From a hadith: Jarîr relates that the Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Whoever initiates a good practice (sunnah hasanah) in Islam and is emulated by others in doing so will get the reward of it and the reward of all those who act upon it without their rewards being diminished in any respect. And whosoever initiates an evil practice (sunnah sayyi'ah) in Islam and is emulated by others will bear the sin of it and the sin of all those who act on it without their burden being diminished in the least. " [Sahîh Muslim: (1017)]

·         The steps you take towards Allah: Your footsteps or your petrol bills, such as going or coming from the mosque

·         The writing you have left behind: your class notes, your diary, your rants against people

·         Calling someone towards a good deed or Islam or driving them away from good or Islam

·         People you have influenced (without being aware of it) to do good or bad: your children, their children, your friends and family, your students.   Your good or bad vibes, your attitude can inspire or repel people from doing good

·         Sometimes you see someone and feel inclined to do good, some people repulse you, some people make you feel happy, some make you feel closer to God, some people seem trustworthy to you, some seem like they will cheat you. While your impression of these people may be wrong, what ultimately matters is the impression they leave on Allah ta'ala through all their actions. What is the impression that you leave on your family and those around you?  What is the impression that Allah ta'ala has of you?


It is the aasaar of the Nabi and the sahaba that have reached us all through the generations

Don't think that your book of deeds only has your own deeds, everything you do is influencing someone to do either good or bad. On the Day of Judgement we'll be informed of all the 'aasaar' or impressions we left behind.